Yesterday I was feeling so calm about the whole baby thing. I felt like this is what life is about … making some babies, soaking up some sunshine. Having a pulse was simply enough. I felt totally chill about existing in this world. Today is another story. Today I’m trying to juggle the idea of building my business, my brand, and my expertise – all while having a tiny baby to take care of. That’s on top of daily grind stuff like finalizing a talk I’m giving next week at Confluence Conference and tackling my inbox. Plus, I got this idea in my head that I’d like to get into weight lifting f’reals post-baby (What!? I know…). It all feels a little overwhelming and I have it far from figured out. With a lil’ bit of self-coaching and a lot of love from Jeremy I’m able to come down from the crazy-pregnant-lady ledge.
In other news, things are actually pretty chill when it comes to being with child. I’m in a sweet spot where I’m far enough along that I’m no longer freaked out about miscarrying or accidentally killing my fetus by twisting the wrong way or having a cup of coffee. I feel adjusted to being pregnant, but I’m also not so big yet that daily life has become completely intolerable. I’m also far enough away from the due date that I’m not too terribly preoccupied with the thought of having to get this baby out of my body. Right now, I feel like me and this baby are in it together and that we both like it that way. Before getting pregnant I underestimated how much bonding would take place between me and the baby before he was ever born. I just imagined I would be giving birth to a total stranger – that it would be akin to an arranged marriage of sorts. I’m relieved to be proven wrong in the process of being pregnant.
Field Notes & Other Observations
• I went to the chiropractor for the first time ever this week! She adjusted my spine, neck, and pelvis. Apparently my pelvis is a little rotated to the right which was giving me some minor lower back pain after long walks. The adjustment has been helping with that but will also help to align things to spread apart properly when giving birth. She’s also helping release some of the tension in my round ligaments (which feels like a stitch in my side when walking). I’ll be going to her about twice a month for now, and then once a week once I hit 36 weeks. For local friends I saw Dr. Beverly and would absolutely recommend her to anyone (pregnant or otherwise).
• We got a tee-pee! The cats love it so far. I hope the kiddo does too. I assumed it would go in the nursery but I’m kind of liking it in our room.
• I want to start putting feelers out for a nanny. Someone who can come in 20-30 hours a week starting in March 2014 and help with baby, laundry, and some house stuff. In my mind I imagine this person being an artist who loves babies, a college student who loves babies, or a grandma-type who loves babies.
Anatomy of an Outfit
Boots – Uggs
Leggings + Tank – Lululemon
Sweater – H&M
(None of this outfit is maternity)
You can find all the previous maternity series posts here – click through each image for the specific post.