There are days when I feel like shutting it all down. I have this romantic vision of selling all my things, living in an Airstream, and essentially falling off the face of the earth while I travel the world and become a textile artist – and even *gasp* NOT blog about it. This fantasy, as wonderful as it sounds, is usually spurred when I feel the need to escape The Critics and The Gremlins, both external and internal, in work and life. I “go there” when I’m afraid to show up and be seen. So, I came across this quote by Marianne Williamson the other day and it resonated big time. I’m not 100% on board with the “God” phrasing, personally, but the core message rang loud and true:
“Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us. We ask ourselves, Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, fabulous? Actually, who are you not to be? You are a child of God. Your playing small does not serve the world. There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won’t feel insecure around you. We are all meant to shine, as children do. We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us. It’s not just in some of us; it’s in everyone. And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others.” – Marianne Williamson
Okay, so it’s still very possible that one day I may ditch all of my worldly belongings to become a gypsy and a fine artist, but I don’t think I’ll ever have it in me to stop living out loud along the way.