I Choose 2015

2015

New Years has always felt a little magical to me. New beginnings, new resolutions, new promises. But in 2014 I lived my whole life one day at a time – and today proved to be just another day when Fox woke up alert and ready for the day at 5:15AM – an hour earlier than usual. I tried to convince him that it was still “night night” and reminisced on a time when 5:15AM really was smack dab in the middle of my night.

Giving birth to Fox at home, on my bed, was a big way to begin 2014. Every day since then has been a bit of a sleep-deprived hormonal haze but some other cool things happened in 2014.

We snuck away to Asheville, NC to officiate and celebrate the marriage of Liz and Micah. On the way home we spent the night in the airport. Fox’s first real adventure.
• We went on our annual family beach trip and played lots of croquet and shuffleboard.
• We moved out of the 1920s house we got married in and birthed our baby in and into a mid-century modern 1950s home across the street from my sister.
• I gave a talk about overcoming fear as a creative entrepreneur at The Circles Conference – and it was one of the scariest things I’ve ever done in my career thus far.
• We went to Palm Springs to hang out with a bunch of badass designers. We saw Salvation Mountain and it was so neat.
• Fox had a three-way with Thumper and his lady bunny at Disney World and it was the best moment of his life so far.

Then there were the moments, for better and for worse, that don’t quite fit into bullet form that filled my year. The big belly laughs, soft milk breath… hot fevers and teary meltdowns.

I started this post yesterday, on New Year’s Eve, and as I swept up all the fragments of my one-day-at-a-time year I couldn’t quite piece together the big picture. But today it’s clear that it doesn’t really matter because the day-to-day is what really matters – how you do anything is how you do everything. Everyday is every day. So at 5:15AM this morning I chose to be responsible for my day. I chose love. That looked like dragging my ass out of bed, putting on my robe, and reading a stiff book with beautiful photos and few words to my sweet baby.

I’ve got some pretty big goals and plans for 2015 – we’re growing our team at BraidI’m starting a podcast, and I am going to get in the best shape of my life – just to name a few. But I’ve learned that the big scary goals are easy – the stuff like hiking to Mount Everest base camp, completing a Whole30, building a successful business, having an unmedicated home birth… it’s not that hard. I find that the little victories that are far more challenging. Finding enthusiasm in spite of the emotional turmoil that sleep-deprivation ushers in… that’s hard. Making magic when you’d rather just go through the motions … that’s hard. Choosing love when you feel afraid … that’s hard.

So, 2015 for me is about choice. I choose magic. I choose energy. I choose love and light. I choose adventure and style and art and expression. Every single day. It’s my choice.

  1. Betty

    Beautifully said!

  2. Elle

    I cried reading this. I feel exactly the same way and just today I was contemplating not choosing love because of fear. Thank you! The small stuff is hard but that’s because despite being small it’s meaningful! It’s scary because at the end of the day life is made up of the small stuff and that’s usually where we find joy. You have shifted my perspective and it is exactly what I needed today! xo

  3. Maria

    Your writing is so fantastic and inspiring! It sounds like you’ve had a wonderful year, and that 2015 will be even better!

    Happy New Year! x

  4. B

    love this piece – beautifully written and true to the heart

    keep it up – you’re going to ROCK 2015

    B

  5. thank you K. so often you put into words what my brain & heart are trying to say. 2015 is my one-day-at-a-time year and this post reminds me of why I want to live that way, this way. Because everyday is every day.

    • What a compliment! Thanks for reading.

  6. From the bottom of my podcast-addicted heart—THANK YOU!

    • Ah, you are so welcome! I hope you enjoy it!

  7. Tracey

    Heck yes to this!

    I couldn’t agree more about the little victories. Those are always the hardest and always offer the most reward. My resolution for 2015 was to be more present for the little moments. I know the big ones are going to rock and they’re all pre-planned. What’s exciting is not know all of the little ones that will be the memories to link it all together.

  8. This post reminds me why I love you, Kathleen. Thanks for the read. Sending (belated) new years love to you and your gang. xo

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